easter eggs for peace May 15, 2004
i cant believe its been a week already... i cant believe its been only a week.

things have been to incredibly amazing... its like i'm in a dream... i find myself asking nathan "is this real" we both dont know, but does it really matter?

last night was indescribable. creek, HUGE trees, stars, bats, cuddle puddle with nathan and his brother [it was like having a brother in a way] and just cuddeling and kissing under the stars on an airmattress that i swear was floating on its own. i love his family. i feel like i belong and that is NOT something i'm used to. its wonderful.

even just doing things for him is amazing...

some times like today, we went to this place with HUGE honkin trees and a raginhg fuckijng river and his mom made a fire and cooded us food [best i've had in a really really long fucking time] and god. it was just, i cant put it into words. kissing with the water crashing and food smells in the air. it was just something i have never ever ever experienced before. nature and nathan. two things i was missing in peabody. the latter i wo;; meber leave again. this is where i belong, with him. latched on to him, breatthing his air, our air and tasteing everybit of him.

when he tells me i'm beautiful i believe him.

who would have thought?

i hope everyone can find there someone, their one. i know i have.

Ali said it at 11:17 p.m..